Careful Where You Stand...

I was ambushed. This really nice guy just asked me out again and wants to be more than friends. He told me how much he liked me etc etc etc. I, unfortunately, can not make that step from friend to more than friend that easy. But he said he’s willing to wait. How nice? I was literally about ready to vomit on myself from how queasy and nauseated I was feeling… seriously. I told him all that too. I told him what I never had to courage to tell him before and everything else (that i could manage to stammer out) that he should know, like how much emotional baggage I have, how unstable I am about life and how I don’t know how to recognize and separate my feelings. It’s funny how all we talk about is landing a nice guy and having someone like us as much as we like them and all that icky love bullshit but when it’s in your face, you can’t handle it. I CAN’T HANDLE… not yet at least. I don’t know… I’m just trying to keep my vomit down.